i wish i could believe in . . . AGAIN

i wish i could believe in santa clause again because i LOVED staying up late excited to hear him on the roof OR just even thinking he lived in the NORTH pole. HE ate my cookie i make. REPLIED to my to my letters i wrote him. ONE time my nana hired a santa clause to come & act like he was putting presents under the tree& my mom woke us up & was like santa down stairs ((; from then i REALLY thought he was real until i turned about 8 years old lol then everything i BELIEVE end just died. !!!